oh lame :( lol i'm just kidding i don't want to get married either
[ There's a long, long pause. A very long pause. For a good while, there's just:
A few times it disappears and then starts up again. Finally, after what seems like ages, ]
girls can date other girls i mean not us we would go as friends only if you wanted i mean next time, since im going with bill now. but girls are allowed to date girls. my best friend at home only likes girls. she doesnt like boys at all sometimes ppl give her crap about it but shes very tough so most ppl leave her alone shes like the coolest person i know and my other friend back home is a boy who is in love w another boy
[ Oh god okay she needs to stop typing before she throws up. Her hands are all shaky. ]
cw: canon-typical violent homophobia, slurs, AIDS mention, general ignorance, the WHOLE shebang
[That's as far as she gets at first, because she's gone from... angry at Bill or Eddie maybe, or maybe even Brianna, to angry at Brianna for probably thinking she's stupid now, to... mostly angry at herself for being so stupid.
It takes her a while too, to figure out what she wants to say in... her own defense, maybe? Bev doesn't know what she's trying to do here and the not knowing just makes her more frustrated.]
I didn't mean It's not the same thig for girls
I mean I don't care if people are gay I really dont. It's just if other people know it or if other people can't pretend they don't know it they'll get killed or worse People said the Tracker brothers were queers but nobody had proof so they left them alone And people said all kinds of crazy shit about the bar next to the bus terminal by city center, I don't know if it was true but
I guess I didn't think about it cause people don't talk about it as much when girls are When girls like other girls. I've heard words and shit about it before but it was like On the news like everyone was talking about the gay disease killing guys on tv I only heard stuff about girls like that too at school. Like insults and shit. Especially since nobody could fucking decide if I was a slut or a dyke or whatever but anyone having proof if some girl was like that? I dunno if she'd even survive
Just cause they can doesn't mean they are ALLOWED it has nothing to do with what like it's just how everyoe else is gonna treat it like they do with aids and everything like how they said it was god doing that to kill them all, it was all over the kissing bridge too at home
Even at school here in Deerington I hear shit about gays and stuff but if someone said shit about someone I cared about who was like that I'd make it so they couldn't anymore okay. Cause I know people who are gay and I wouldn't let anyone hurt them for it cause thats bullshit
[This now has 0% to do with the dance at all, apparently. It's all just backpedaling and haphazardly explaining like any of it even matters to two girls who ostensibly don't even want to go on a date anyway.]
[ Brianna goes silent for a while. She thinks about not answering, but ultimately can't bring herself not to. She needs to say something, because she needs to prove that she doesn't care and that nothing Beverly said just now hurt her feelings. At all. And why should it have? It's not like she's gay. ]
okay jeez i wasn't asking you out or anything you didn't need to freak out
forget i said anything okay?? sorry your town is so fucked up but its not like that other places
[Whatever Beverly was looking for, if she even could have found it, this wasn't it.
She doesn't want Brianna to just leave it and her alone, but Beverly definitely, definitely fucked something up and she can't figure out what. And she just feels stupider because she doesn't know why she overreacted or why that even mattered so much that Brianna would just give up on it.
That anger buzzing in her head doesn't know where it's supposed to go. She just throws her Fluid at the wall.]
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i don't want to get married either
[ There's a long, long pause. A very long pause. For a good while, there's just:
A few times it disappears and then starts up again. Finally, after what seems like ages, ]
girls can date other girls
i mean not us
we would go as friends
only if you wanted
i mean next time, since im going with bill now.
but girls are allowed to date girls.
my best friend at home only likes girls. she doesnt like boys at all
sometimes ppl give her crap about it but shes very tough so most ppl leave her alone
shes like the coolest person i know
and my other friend back home is a boy who is in love w another boy
[ Oh god okay she needs to stop typing before she throws up. Her hands are all shaky. ]
cw: canon-typical violent homophobia, slurs, AIDS mention, general ignorance, the WHOLE shebang
i know about gay people Brianna
[That's as far as she gets at first, because she's gone from... angry at Bill or Eddie maybe, or maybe even Brianna, to angry at Brianna for probably thinking she's stupid now, to... mostly angry at herself for being so stupid.
It takes her a while too, to figure out what she wants to say in... her own defense, maybe? Bev doesn't know what she's trying to do here and the not knowing just makes her more frustrated.]
I didn't mean
It's not the same thig for girls
I mean I don't care if people are gay I really dont. It's just if other people know it or if other people can't pretend they don't know it they'll get killed or worse
People said the Tracker brothers were queers but nobody had proof so they left them alone
And people said all kinds of crazy shit about the bar next to the bus terminal by city center, I don't know if it was true but
I guess I didn't think about it cause people don't talk about it as much when girls are
When girls like other girls.
I've heard words and shit about it before but it was like
On the news like everyone was talking about the gay disease killing guys on tv I only heard stuff about girls like that too at school. Like insults and shit.
Especially since nobody could fucking decide if I was a slut or a dyke or whatever but anyone having proof if some girl was like that? I dunno if she'd even survive
Just cause they can doesn't mean they are ALLOWED it has nothing to do with what like it's just how everyoe else is gonna treat it like they do with aids and everything like how they said it was god doing that to kill them all, it was all over the kissing bridge too at home
Even at school here in Deerington I hear shit about gays and stuff but if someone said shit about
someone I cared about who was like that
I'd make it so they couldn't anymore okay. Cause I know people who are gay and I wouldn't let anyone hurt them for it cause thats bullshit
[This now has 0% to do with the dance at all, apparently. It's all just backpedaling and haphazardly explaining like any of it even matters to two girls who ostensibly don't even want to go on a date anyway.]
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okay jeez
i wasn't asking you out or anything you didn't need to freak out
forget i said anything okay??
sorry your town is so fucked up but its not like that other places
anyway i gotta go
see ya around
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She doesn't want Brianna to just leave it and her alone, but Beverly definitely, definitely fucked something up and she can't figure out what. And she just feels stupider because she doesn't know why she overreacted or why that even mattered so much that Brianna would just give up on it.
That anger buzzing in her head doesn't know where it's supposed to go. She just throws her Fluid at the wall.]