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(It's technically Gucci who finds out that Beverly is in the house first. There's a snuffling at Beverly's door and then a determined paw knocking that door right on open. Gucci comes trotting in and upon seeing Beverly proceeds to act like she's known Beverly her whole life. The dog's body goes into wiggle overdrive as she wags her tail. She's not a jumper, but you betchya she's nosing and pawing at Bev's leg.
Not far after is Eddie who comes strolling into the room looking frazzled.)
Gucci, what the hell are you---
(Then he sees Beverly and all at once he goes from frazzled to delighted. His eyes pop wide open and his grin stretches across his face.)
Hot shit! (The last time they had seen each other had been...hard. And some part of Eddie had anticipated it had just been some fluke of chance. Deerington did that sometimes. But if Beverly was here then that meant...That meant she had to really be here. Just to confirm Eddie whips his arm up to check out his Fluid and sure enough- there's Beverly's name.)
Hot shit! You really are here! (Eddie bounces forward just a few steps into her room, and Gucci's whining now for depraved attention.)
That means you're my roomie. Welcome to-- (Eddie pauses and frowns, realizing Chloe and him had never come up with some dumbass name for their house.)
Whatever. Welcome home, Bev. (That's what mattered.)
Not far after is Eddie who comes strolling into the room looking frazzled.)
Gucci, what the hell are you---
(Then he sees Beverly and all at once he goes from frazzled to delighted. His eyes pop wide open and his grin stretches across his face.)
Hot shit! (The last time they had seen each other had been...hard. And some part of Eddie had anticipated it had just been some fluke of chance. Deerington did that sometimes. But if Beverly was here then that meant...That meant she had to really be here. Just to confirm Eddie whips his arm up to check out his Fluid and sure enough- there's Beverly's name.)
Hot shit! You really are here! (Eddie bounces forward just a few steps into her room, and Gucci's whining now for depraved attention.)
That means you're my roomie. Welcome to-- (Eddie pauses and frowns, realizing Chloe and him had never come up with some dumbass name for their house.)
Whatever. Welcome home, Bev. (That's what mattered.)
[Beverly is surprised at the sudden appearance of Dog, a little nervous because it is really going at her, but that quickly turns into delight. Bev has never had a pet, of course, but it's too easy to say hi to the little fluffball, reach out, and start petting her.
She's about to ask the dog her nameβplayfully of course, she figures this one isn't an alien raccoonβwhen her name is called out and Eddie walks right in.]
Hi.
[That's all she can say, sort of stunned by this entire sequence of events. (Eddie has a dog? Eddie has a dog named Gucci?) But as he slowly reaches the conclusion that yes, she's really here, she just laughs.
Petting a sweet dog's soft fur, hearing someone she loves tell her "Welcome home," it's kind of a lot. She has to bite her lip, and part of her almost can't believe she's here either, even though she just laughed at Eddie for that.]
Yeah, of... of course I'm here. I told you.
[That she'd do anything to make sure they stuck together.]
When did you get a dog? Did you really name it Gucci?
She's about to ask the dog her nameβplayfully of course, she figures this one isn't an alien raccoonβwhen her name is called out and Eddie walks right in.]
Hi.
[That's all she can say, sort of stunned by this entire sequence of events. (Eddie has a dog? Eddie has a dog named Gucci?) But as he slowly reaches the conclusion that yes, she's really here, she just laughs.
Petting a sweet dog's soft fur, hearing someone she loves tell her "Welcome home," it's kind of a lot. She has to bite her lip, and part of her almost can't believe she's here either, even though she just laughed at Eddie for that.]
Yeah, of... of course I'm here. I told you.
[That she'd do anything to make sure they stuck together.]
When did you get a dog? Did you really name it Gucci?
(Similarly Eddie had never had a pet before Deerington. Lord would his mother have had an absolute stroke if she knew. He could practically hear her wailing of Eddie! Your allergies! You know you're allergic to pet dander! But he wasn't. Just like he wasn't asthmatic. All the same he can't blame anyone's surprise for the dog. It was Eddie after all.)
...Yeah, you did. (At the back of his mind he couldn't help but think of how often he'd seen the Losers phase in and out of the world, but Bev really was here, and he didn't want to waste anymore time thinking about what if she wasn't. So his voice winds up soft and affectionate.)
She's new. I got her only like...A month ago maybe? Just showed up in my bed one day and was a total lover. Isn't that right, sweetheart?
(He pitches his voice up towards the last sentence, and it's evident that he's talking directly to Gucci rather than Beverly. He walks over and scoops Gucci up into her arms. She wasn't a big dog- only 21 lbs, but Eddie was a small boy so it was an armful of dog enough.)
Um- (Eddie feels a bit of heat rushing to his face, and he can't help but mildly regret the name now. He wondered if Chloe was right about making him more obvious. He swallows a bit and gives a hesitant nod.)
Yeah. (Eddie forces a smile though, and steps closer to Bev, tipping his body in a way that pretty much invited her to pet Gucci as much as she liked.)
I did it mostly to spite Chloe. She hates that I have Gucci fannypacks and stuff. So I thought it'd be funny. Plus it's kind of a cute dog name, right?
(Please say right. Lord. But oh! His eyes brighten and he seems to forget his shyness about the name.)
Christ! You don't know Chloe, huh? She's another girl who lives here. Well, woman, I guess, since she's like in her twenties. She's got blue hair and tattoos and is kind of an asshole? But she reminds me a lot of Richie so she's good- and then Max lives here too. She's Chloe's best friend from home and she's really nice too. Um-. Sorry. I know it's a lot to be told you're suddenly living with uh- me and then two women you've never met before.
...Yeah, you did. (At the back of his mind he couldn't help but think of how often he'd seen the Losers phase in and out of the world, but Bev really was here, and he didn't want to waste anymore time thinking about what if she wasn't. So his voice winds up soft and affectionate.)
She's new. I got her only like...A month ago maybe? Just showed up in my bed one day and was a total lover. Isn't that right, sweetheart?
(He pitches his voice up towards the last sentence, and it's evident that he's talking directly to Gucci rather than Beverly. He walks over and scoops Gucci up into her arms. She wasn't a big dog- only 21 lbs, but Eddie was a small boy so it was an armful of dog enough.)
Um- (Eddie feels a bit of heat rushing to his face, and he can't help but mildly regret the name now. He wondered if Chloe was right about making him more obvious. He swallows a bit and gives a hesitant nod.)
Yeah. (Eddie forces a smile though, and steps closer to Bev, tipping his body in a way that pretty much invited her to pet Gucci as much as she liked.)
I did it mostly to spite Chloe. She hates that I have Gucci fannypacks and stuff. So I thought it'd be funny. Plus it's kind of a cute dog name, right?
(Please say right. Lord. But oh! His eyes brighten and he seems to forget his shyness about the name.)
Christ! You don't know Chloe, huh? She's another girl who lives here. Well, woman, I guess, since she's like in her twenties. She's got blue hair and tattoos and is kind of an asshole? But she reminds me a lot of Richie so she's good- and then Max lives here too. She's Chloe's best friend from home and she's really nice too. Um-. Sorry. I know it's a lot to be told you're suddenly living with uh- me and then two women you've never met before.
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[Bev's mouth quirks as Eddie gets soft as hell about his dog, because that's so endearing. Gucci gets some enthusiastic petting around her floppy ears as soon as she's back within reach. Bev only looks back up at Eddie when he says the fated phrase.]
You have Gucci fannypacks? I didn't even know they made those!
[Bev isn't laughing at him for that, though. Well, not for any reason he might be fearing. She's laughing because it's like Eddie dialed up to 11, now that he's free to be more himself, and she's delighted by it.]
It is a cute name. It fits her, too. Right, Gucci?
[Bev doesn't want to smother the dog too much, though, so she looks back up at Eddie after a few more gentle scratches around the puppy's little head. Right, of course there are other people Eddie's met while he's been here, he's had years to do it. It is a little weird, though, to think about other people hanging out with any of the Losers. Sure, there were some people who talked to them, it wasn't like they were totally exiled, but...
Well, they all came together for a reason.]
I really can't imagine two Richies in the same room. Um...
[Beverly's hand absently comes to fiddle with the latchkey at her chest, hanging from its chain.]
Would they be okay with it? With me staying with you. All of you, I mean.
You have Gucci fannypacks? I didn't even know they made those!
[Bev isn't laughing at him for that, though. Well, not for any reason he might be fearing. She's laughing because it's like Eddie dialed up to 11, now that he's free to be more himself, and she's delighted by it.]
It is a cute name. It fits her, too. Right, Gucci?
[Bev doesn't want to smother the dog too much, though, so she looks back up at Eddie after a few more gentle scratches around the puppy's little head. Right, of course there are other people Eddie's met while he's been here, he's had years to do it. It is a little weird, though, to think about other people hanging out with any of the Losers. Sure, there were some people who talked to them, it wasn't like they were totally exiled, but...
Well, they all came together for a reason.]
I really can't imagine two Richies in the same room. Um...
[Beverly's hand absently comes to fiddle with the latchkey at her chest, hanging from its chain.]
Would they be okay with it? With me staying with you. All of you, I mean.
(Finally someone who isn't a total asshole about his fannypacks. This was one of many reasons why Bev was allowed to stay. Eddie beams at her and tosses a hand up in the air with a flick of his wrist.)
Right?! That's what I said! I didn't even know fannypacks were a thing until I got to this place and then I was like well damn, no wonder I wear them all the time in the 80s.
(Shit was useful to have. He smiles a little more genuinely at the compliment to Gucci's name, and whatever had been nervous in him before fades quickly. Bev wouldn't judge him for something like that. Of course she wouldn't.)
It does. She's a huge cuddler so if you ever want to cash in on that feel free.
(Eddie knew it was a little funky that he had people he knew and was even close with outside of the Losers. Tell him that two years ago back when he was still fresh out of Derry and he wouldn't of believed anyone that such a thing was possible.
None of those people had ever been the Losers though. Chloe had been the closest thing. He snorts at that comment.)
There's some kid around here that looks kind of like Richie. He doesn't wear glasses though. Richie's a little taller. And he has curlier hair. And like-? Richie's face is - (Eddie waves a hand around absently. Whatever that means. Eddie puts Gucci down, his arms getting a little weak from holding her for so long. She's content with this and sets to investigate politely around.)
Chloe's great though. (Just like Richie was great.
The question catches Eddie off guard, his eyes widening and his head tips to the side.)
What? Of course they'd be okay with it. You're a Loser. (He smiles again, softer this time, warmer.)
You belong with another Loser obviously and I sure as fuck am not about to subject you to shacking up with Richie and Bill. Chloe actually knows you from before- she totally digs you. I know that's kind of weird to hear that someone knows you that you don't know, but trust me, you'll love her. And Max is super kind. She'll love you within two seconds of meeting you. Promise.
(He crosses his index and middle finger together to show as much.)
They both put up with me so you're not gonna be a problem. You never are.
Right?! That's what I said! I didn't even know fannypacks were a thing until I got to this place and then I was like well damn, no wonder I wear them all the time in the 80s.
(Shit was useful to have. He smiles a little more genuinely at the compliment to Gucci's name, and whatever had been nervous in him before fades quickly. Bev wouldn't judge him for something like that. Of course she wouldn't.)
It does. She's a huge cuddler so if you ever want to cash in on that feel free.
(Eddie knew it was a little funky that he had people he knew and was even close with outside of the Losers. Tell him that two years ago back when he was still fresh out of Derry and he wouldn't of believed anyone that such a thing was possible.
None of those people had ever been the Losers though. Chloe had been the closest thing. He snorts at that comment.)
There's some kid around here that looks kind of like Richie. He doesn't wear glasses though. Richie's a little taller. And he has curlier hair. And like-? Richie's face is - (Eddie waves a hand around absently. Whatever that means. Eddie puts Gucci down, his arms getting a little weak from holding her for so long. She's content with this and sets to investigate politely around.)
Chloe's great though. (Just like Richie was great.
The question catches Eddie off guard, his eyes widening and his head tips to the side.)
What? Of course they'd be okay with it. You're a Loser. (He smiles again, softer this time, warmer.)
You belong with another Loser obviously and I sure as fuck am not about to subject you to shacking up with Richie and Bill. Chloe actually knows you from before- she totally digs you. I know that's kind of weird to hear that someone knows you that you don't know, but trust me, you'll love her. And Max is super kind. She'll love you within two seconds of meeting you. Promise.
(He crosses his index and middle finger together to show as much.)
They both put up with me so you're not gonna be a problem. You never are.
im only sorry you have to mutually experience it sometiems
ugh dont remind me. that practically makes it WORSE.
(That moment when Eddie doesn't even realize he's being quite so blunt. Problem here is that he felt very safe with Bev and a bit like she understood him- and it didn't really help that his memories sometimes blurred. He'd told Bev before- and so some part of him forgets that this wasn't quite that Bev.
Oops.)
ugh dont remind me. that practically makes it WORSE.
(That moment when Eddie doesn't even realize he's being quite so blunt. Problem here is that he felt very safe with Bev and a bit like she understood him- and it didn't really help that his memories sometimes blurred. He'd told Bev before- and so some part of him forgets that this wasn't quite that Bev.
Oops.)
[Some small part of Bev catches that slip up. Most of her wants to move on and ignore it, especially since she figures she might just be misinterpreting it.
But after a second of trying to justify a different meaning, it's pretty clear there isn't one. Not one that makes sense.
But saying anything about it outright? That feels, to a girl born and raised in Derry, like a terrible insult.]
Richie got pretty upset about all that too. Is he okay?
But after a second of trying to justify a different meaning, it's pretty clear there isn't one. Not one that makes sense.
But saying anything about it outright? That feels, to a girl born and raised in Derry, like a terrible insult.]
Richie got pretty upset about all that too. Is he okay?
(With Eddie, of all the Losers, it was perhaps the smartest approach. He was never very any good with any sort of blunt confrontation about things he wasn't entirely comfortable with.
But it was pretty amazing how much someone could get out of him just by virtue of using the right words. It was the inherently naive part of him that wound up making him vulnerable to that kind of thing. Something his momma had always taken advantage of.
But not everyone did. There were ways of using it for the better of a situation.
Eddie thinks nothing of when Richie is brought up. Doesn't coil up in defense. Just kind of sighs.)
i think so. i wasnt expecting of all people for HIM to get upset. and then i think THAT upset him
but we talked about it.
i still dont honestly know why he was so bothered but i guess sometimes you dont need to know WHY someone was hurt just to know that they ARE hurt.
still kind of feel like an asshole about it though.
he seems better at least.
But it was pretty amazing how much someone could get out of him just by virtue of using the right words. It was the inherently naive part of him that wound up making him vulnerable to that kind of thing. Something his momma had always taken advantage of.
But not everyone did. There were ways of using it for the better of a situation.
Eddie thinks nothing of when Richie is brought up. Doesn't coil up in defense. Just kind of sighs.)
i think so. i wasnt expecting of all people for HIM to get upset. and then i think THAT upset him
but we talked about it.
i still dont honestly know why he was so bothered but i guess sometimes you dont need to know WHY someone was hurt just to know that they ARE hurt.
still kind of feel like an asshole about it though.
he seems better at least.
i dont know. it feels a little like my fault. i mean i dont THINK i was an asshole about the marriage stuff
but he also never gets upset like that so maybe i was?
i dont either. it's not like marriage could do anything for him.
i guess he likes the idea of the like. commitment. i tried telling him you can still have that without marriage shit
but he also never gets upset like that so maybe i was?
i dont either. it's not like marriage could do anything for him.
i guess he likes the idea of the like. commitment. i tried telling him you can still have that without marriage shit
A lot of people get stupid about marriage.
I think more people think it's about love than it really is. If he was thinking about it that way then I could see why he'd be mad.
If it were really about love and commitment though all 7 of us would be married.
I think more people think it's about love than it really is. If he was thinking about it that way then I could see why he'd be mad.
If it were really about love and commitment though all 7 of us would be married.
yeah i think so too. a lot of people seemed to think that because i didnt believe in marriage i didnt believe in love
lol someone said "you just have to find the right person and you'll change your mind" like what
i mean we practically are lets be honest.
but im pretty sure most people associate marriage with like you know
romantic love. and that kind of romantic commitment. being committed to your friends is natural and easy and we dont need some sort of testimony for that
but i guess romance is
different
people want to be able to i guess represent their romantic commitment
or whatever
but i still think that can be done without marraige.
lol someone said "you just have to find the right person and you'll change your mind" like what
i mean we practically are lets be honest.
but im pretty sure most people associate marriage with like you know
romantic love. and that kind of romantic commitment. being committed to your friends is natural and easy and we dont need some sort of testimony for that
but i guess romance is
different
people want to be able to i guess represent their romantic commitment
or whatever
but i still think that can be done without marraige.
[There's a very long pause between messages before Beverly finally responds.]
I guess it's hard for me to even imagine being committed to someone like that.
I don't even get how it's supposed to be different. I kinda do but not really.
Like you do different things when you're in love with a boy or he's in love with you but
what decides it's so different?
People say girls and boys can't be friends all the time but I'm friends with all of you.
I guess it's hard for me to even imagine being committed to someone like that.
I don't even get how it's supposed to be different. I kinda do but not really.
Like you do different things when you're in love with a boy or he's in love with you but
what decides it's so different?
People say girls and boys can't be friends all the time but I'm friends with all of you.
(At first Eddie's hesitant to respond himself, but of all people in the world who deserved to maybe be able to better understand what being in real love felt like? It was Beverly. So Eddie takes a soft breath and tries his very best.
Because he would try for Beverly. For a Loser.)
Your heart decides it's different. sorry I know that's really cheesy and Im not trying to say oh you know when you know! like im not gonna be able to tell you what it's like when you fall in love because i honestly dont remember that part. it's just always been how it is.
you categorize them differently in your head.
like i mean whenever you go to describe your friends and you get to them your brain comes up short because the word "friend" doesn't really work out how you want it to
you feel like you're underselling what you're describing and you don't want people to misintrepret how much you care
and i wont lie
love is different for everyone so i wont sit here and tell you you should look at what im saying as an exact word-for-word ideal as to how YOU might feel love
but i am saying that it might help you understand
you dont stop being someones friend because youre in love with them and thats where it's easy to get lost because in your head they're always the friend first but then the person you love and then you get to the realization that like
that's the whole package. you can be in love with all those things at once. be in love with them being your friend and then be in love with them being something more and then just being in love with THEM and everything they do
and it's easy
it's actually realy easy to feel that commitment when you do. like i dont know. it's a selfless feeling. like with friends oyu're always gonna want to be friends FOREVER
but with the person you love
as long as they're in your life it's enough
it's almost? somehow more selfless because you wind up not caring so much about BEING with them
i mean you do but
it wont kill you if youre not if it still means they can be happy and you can see them being happy
and i guess. you always get stuck on how they make you feel. you get stuck on random memories with them and start thinking about how they look at you or how they touched your hand one time or how they always seem to want to make you laugh more than other people. stuff like that.
and you realize you're not really so worried about OTHER people and how THEY look at you
at least not in the same way.
and that doesnt necessarily mean you're in love- hyper focusing on shit like that but it can mean you're seeing some sort of shape thats similar to love. crushes i guess.
i dont know shit about crushes tho lol
(...........Despite what Eddie just said. He also doesn't really consider his feeling as a "crush" though. That word felt...underwhelming somehow.)
people are fucking idiots. that's because people think that girls and boys are always falling in love with each other or wanting to fuck when they dont realize that a lot of girls and boys just know how to love the parts of each other that have NOTHING to do with any of that stuff
people get so good at convincing themselves of how relationships are supposed to work
dont let people tell you you cant love us
or make you feel ashamed for loving us
because you can. and you dont need to be told it MUST mean theres some part of you that wants all of us or
that we want you in that way
because thats rEaly fucked up
it's also like super fucking invalidating to each of us and our own feelings
people hate platonic love because a lot of people dont HAVE it so they want to break the platonic love they DO see
it's fucked
Because he would try for Beverly. For a Loser.)
Your heart decides it's different. sorry I know that's really cheesy and Im not trying to say oh you know when you know! like im not gonna be able to tell you what it's like when you fall in love because i honestly dont remember that part. it's just always been how it is.
you categorize them differently in your head.
like i mean whenever you go to describe your friends and you get to them your brain comes up short because the word "friend" doesn't really work out how you want it to
you feel like you're underselling what you're describing and you don't want people to misintrepret how much you care
and i wont lie
love is different for everyone so i wont sit here and tell you you should look at what im saying as an exact word-for-word ideal as to how YOU might feel love
but i am saying that it might help you understand
you dont stop being someones friend because youre in love with them and thats where it's easy to get lost because in your head they're always the friend first but then the person you love and then you get to the realization that like
that's the whole package. you can be in love with all those things at once. be in love with them being your friend and then be in love with them being something more and then just being in love with THEM and everything they do
and it's easy
it's actually realy easy to feel that commitment when you do. like i dont know. it's a selfless feeling. like with friends oyu're always gonna want to be friends FOREVER
but with the person you love
as long as they're in your life it's enough
it's almost? somehow more selfless because you wind up not caring so much about BEING with them
i mean you do but
it wont kill you if youre not if it still means they can be happy and you can see them being happy
and i guess. you always get stuck on how they make you feel. you get stuck on random memories with them and start thinking about how they look at you or how they touched your hand one time or how they always seem to want to make you laugh more than other people. stuff like that.
and you realize you're not really so worried about OTHER people and how THEY look at you
at least not in the same way.
and that doesnt necessarily mean you're in love- hyper focusing on shit like that but it can mean you're seeing some sort of shape thats similar to love. crushes i guess.
i dont know shit about crushes tho lol
(...........Despite what Eddie just said. He also doesn't really consider his feeling as a "crush" though. That word felt...underwhelming somehow.)
people are fucking idiots. that's because people think that girls and boys are always falling in love with each other or wanting to fuck when they dont realize that a lot of girls and boys just know how to love the parts of each other that have NOTHING to do with any of that stuff
people get so good at convincing themselves of how relationships are supposed to work
dont let people tell you you cant love us
or make you feel ashamed for loving us
because you can. and you dont need to be told it MUST mean theres some part of you that wants all of us or
that we want you in that way
because thats rEaly fucked up
it's also like super fucking invalidating to each of us and our own feelings
people hate platonic love because a lot of people dont HAVE it so they want to break the platonic love they DO see
it's fucked
I guess I haven't felt anything like that. Not exactly
Sometimes I think maybe I do and I don't really know if it's real or what
I didn't have anything like platonic love for a long time either. This is probably shitty but I mostly feel glad for everything that happened this summer.
Or however many summers ago it was.
Like if it brought us all together and
changed some things
I don't know. Sorry.
You're saying there's someone you feel that kind of love about though. Right?
Sometimes I think maybe I do and I don't really know if it's real or what
I didn't have anything like platonic love for a long time either. This is probably shitty but I mostly feel glad for everything that happened this summer.
Or however many summers ago it was.
Like if it brought us all together and
changed some things
I don't know. Sorry.
You're saying there's someone you feel that kind of love about though. Right?
it's okay if you havent you know.
or if you've only felt it a little
i think that's pretty normal.
no it's not shitty either. i'm really glad everything happened this summer too. you're all the best friends ive ever made in my life.
it's fucked but i wouldnt change any of it
dont apologize. not to me at least. i understand. trust me. my life got better for that summer too
even if a lot of it was fucking awful.
what
no
(Eddie. Is literal garbage at lying.)
i mean ya
but like
no for public record
or if you've only felt it a little
i think that's pretty normal.
no it's not shitty either. i'm really glad everything happened this summer too. you're all the best friends ive ever made in my life.
it's fucked but i wouldnt change any of it
dont apologize. not to me at least. i understand. trust me. my life got better for that summer too
even if a lot of it was fucking awful.
what
no
(Eddie. Is literal garbage at lying.)
i mean ya
but like
no for public record
we need to meed up before Eddie's bday, I have something to give you for it
what. no. i literally spent the 12th and 13th at your house how did you miss this.
[ maybe because you were holed up in eddie's room the whole time you weirdo. ]
no, we're gonna coordinate our outfits, which means I have to see you before the party so we all show up wearing the same thing. sort of the same thing.
listen, I have shirts for us okay.
[ maybe because you were holed up in eddie's room the whole time you weirdo. ]
no, we're gonna coordinate our outfits, which means I have to see you before the party so we all show up wearing the same thing. sort of the same thing.
listen, I have shirts for us okay.
You suck at keeping secrets.
I don't know if it was the same for you guys in the 50s but
Richie doesn't even know either cause he doesn't remember how everything ended
But I got kissed by two different boys and both times it was like
I really liked it but
I don't know it just made things more confusing. Not even just cause it was two different guys but whenever I think about it I feel like I can't tell anyone. Like it feels bad even if when it happened it didn't.
I don't know if that makes sense. I feel gross you know? And that doesn't even have to do with the boys but just me.
I was kinda serious about us getting married though. I don't want to kiss you or anything like that but that makes it better probably.
I don't know if it was the same for you guys in the 50s but
Richie doesn't even know either cause he doesn't remember how everything ended
But I got kissed by two different boys and both times it was like
I really liked it but
I don't know it just made things more confusing. Not even just cause it was two different guys but whenever I think about it I feel like I can't tell anyone. Like it feels bad even if when it happened it didn't.
I don't know if that makes sense. I feel gross you know? And that doesn't even have to do with the boys but just me.
I was kinda serious about us getting married though. I don't want to kiss you or anything like that but that makes it better probably.
listen it's habit okay.
it's not, christ, just. come over here. or I'll climb in through your window, whichever.
it's not, christ, just. come over here. or I'll climb in through your window, whichever.
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