that works just fine. if theres anything youre ever lost on or just want to talk about im literally right down the hall or a call away.
god. people always want to tell people like us that we're not doing things the exactly right way. im always too girly or too small or too fragile or too weak. and it is like that. it's like you could blow up your body or switch places with someone else and all they'd ever see is the same old you and whatever they think is so rotten about you.
for the record i think your hair is perfect. it's not girly or boyish. it's just you. it's beverly. & that's precisely what it should be and that's that's really good beverly. i think it's even better you did it to defy those fuckers who wanna boss around your image.
You deserve it too Beverly. You really do.
I dont really blame you?? the thing is like. im a weird case and i KNOW i am. ive had the same feelings that have only gotten more and more intense since i was like SEVEN so i have the luck of loving someone and KNOWING that they wont change. at least not in the way thats going to hurt me. i have stupid faith in him because it's all ive ever known.
but i realize thats not something a lot of people can say and honestly if our places were swapped, you nnd me, i think i'd feel exactly how you do i wouldnt KNOW how to trust anyone enough ofr that. i dont KNOW if id be capable of it. thats why our memories vanishing scares me so much cause i forget all about that. all about those feelings and whats good for me and i forget about all of you. we all forget each other. we forget what it's like to really love someone and trust someone. so i dont get it from personal experience i dont think. but i get it from that at least.
it's okay bev to doubt people. even if they are your friends. i mean. you dont know either of them SUPER well so youre just being safe. and as long as you're not trying to control their thooughts or opinions i dont think your necessarily deciding anything for them. sometimes we cant help how we think about other people
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god. people always want to tell people like us that we're not doing things the exactly right way. im always too girly or too small or too fragile or too weak. and it is like that. it's like you could blow up your body or switch places with someone else and all they'd ever see is the same old you and whatever they think is so rotten about you.
for the record i think your hair is perfect. it's not girly or boyish. it's just you. it's beverly. & that's precisely what it should be and that's
that's really good beverly.
i think it's even better you did it to defy those fuckers who wanna boss around your image.
You deserve it too Beverly. You really do.
I dont really blame you?? the thing is like.
im a weird case and i KNOW i am. ive had the same feelings that have only gotten more and more intense since i was like SEVEN so i have the luck of loving someone and KNOWING that they wont change. at least not in the way thats going to hurt me. i have stupid faith in him because it's all ive ever known.
but i realize thats not something a lot of people can say and honestly if our places were swapped, you nnd me, i think i'd feel exactly how you do
i wouldnt KNOW how to trust anyone enough ofr that. i dont KNOW if id be capable of it. thats why our memories vanishing scares me so much
cause i forget all about that. all about those feelings and whats good for me and i forget about all of you.
we all forget each other.
we forget what it's like to really love someone and trust someone. so i dont get it from personal experience i dont think. but i get it from that at least.
it's okay bev to doubt people. even if they are your friends. i mean. you dont know either of them SUPER well so youre just being safe. and as long as you're not trying to control their thooughts or opinions i dont think your necessarily deciding anything for them.
sometimes we cant help how we think about other people