litup: (ruche.)
beverly marsh ([personal profile] litup) wrote 2019-11-18 10:23 am (UTC)

CW: HM, YEAH, HM, ITS BAD HERE (csa and sexual harassment and its stephen king)

Yeah.
At least we can tell each other and help figure any of it out



Yeah. That's
Yeah. When I cut my hair I was really really mad and I wanted to do just about anything to get people to stop looking at me like that or
I just get so mad sometimes but it didn't change anything

It didn't change shit it was all the SAME. Either I'm being too girly or too boyish either way I think people can just tell I'm wrong
Like it's easy for them to look at me and touch my hair cause they can see it right away?
I could tear all my skin off and it STILL wouldn't change anything probably

I'm glad you have someone like that though Eddie you deserve taht. Someone to love you that you can love like that too even if it's scary.
I think the thing that scares me the most about it is that I don't tihnk I can ever trust anyone not to change even if it's okay now? Because sometimes people just become something and you don't expect it and by then it's too late

And at the same time I hate myself for doubting either of them and just deciding that for them.

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